Thursday, January 10, 2013

Goodbye to you my friend


December 2004. It was our Christmas party. One person was missing: Carmelle Garces, who was confined to the hospital due to her illness. As we were all preparing to go home, my classmate Tonio suddenly approached me and gave me a drawing. He told me it was from Carmelle. Immediately, tears sprung from my eyes. 

I had been badgering her to give me a drawing even though she insisted many times that she can't draw. I still insisted because I wanted to have a remembrance from everybody and I told her that anyone can draw. 

I cried because even in her condition, she was still very thoughtful and kept her promise to give me a drawing. And like a domino effect, my other classmates were crying with me until almost everyone in class was crying. We were crying because she had been absent from school for many days already and we were all worried because she had been battling this illness for quite some time.

She was one of my close friends in high school who would patiently listen to me. And everyone loved her because of her funny yet innocent remarks. She was often my seatmate during rearrangements because both our family names start with "G", and whenever I'm with her, I feel really comfortable and at ease. As I always think to my self, she is one of my favorite classmates. 

January 2013. I received the news that she had already taken her eternal repose. It had been years since I last saw her. It now feels painful, awful, and sad. But I'm quite relieved that she doesn't have to continue the fight and suffer anymore.

As I look back on this drawing, I can't help but be glad that I badgered her in giving this to me. But even without this, she will remain in my heart and in my mind forever. I'm crying once more as I look at this drawing and writing this post which I am dedicating for her.

I'll miss her. I'll truly miss her. I wish I had replied more to her texts. But now, I pray for her soul to be happy there in heaven now. I hope God will take good care of her in heaven. I'm sure she will be a beautiful and funny angel there.   

Thursday, January 3, 2013

Bizarre Dream

Today, I had a very bizarre dream. It went along like this:


I was chasing someone and I got hit something big and solid. I fell to the ground. I tried to get up but I could no longer do it. Suddenly I am watching my family members and friends become sad about my death. I tried to touch them. Yes, I could touch them. But they could not see me, nor feel me. I tried talking to them, but they had no reaction. Suddenly I was hit by a sudden realization. I only lived for 24 years...and that is all of it. I watched sadly at my neighbors and friends while thinking that they still all have a chance to grow old and live for more than the 24 years I've lived. And the dream shifted to another one.

This dream left me a feeling of total sadness and at the same time, relief and happiness. I was happy because it was all just a dream and I am alive, yes really alive! I could touch and talk to my loved ones again. It made me feel sad and afraid because I thought my life ended just that. It felt incomplete. I lived almost all my life trying to work hard and even harder. But I didn't really live my life as it deserves to be lived. That's why I'm glad that I was given another day to grow old and experience life.

I truly regret the careless times I said "I want to die already" every time I feel life is too hard on me. I didn't even realize that I'm luckier than other people who are struggling to live another day. This dream was literally an eye-opener for me (and I'm glad it did!). I just hope that in this new year, I can gradually live my life, fulfill my purpose, serve others, achieve the dreams of my soul, travel to new places, give more love to my loved ones and most of all give thanks to God for each and every single day he blesses me with.

Tuesday, January 1, 2013

Thank you 2012

This past 2012 was filled with so much ruckus. I had been up, but most of the times I had been down. Well, emotionally anyway. I just hope this new year will bring me more cheer than I could expect so that I won't be able to say that this condition I'm having right now is already the default style intended for my life.

Anyway, here are a few trinkets I've been able to obtain this past year which brought me little smiles on my day.


Thank you Honey!

 Thank you Candice!

 Thank you Yann!

Thank you Ate Maritess!


Thank you Coleen!

 Thank you Prizee! 

Thank you RAFI!

Thank you Laser Team!

Thank you InfoDev Team!

Thank you InfoDev Team!

Thank you Aldex and SW Help Team!

Thank you Coleen!

Thank you Sharon!

Thank you Jerus!

Thank you Sharon!

Thank you Ate Mel!

Thank you Ayreen!


Thank you Shine!

Thank you Berns and Mommy Gems!

Thank you Loretta!

Thank you HUB!

Thank you Glaiza!



Friday, December 28, 2012

Quotes about life

Need I say more? =)


I guess it still relates to one of my favorite quotes from Coelho.


I SHOULD do this.

Sunday, June 3, 2012

Quote For the Day: The Adventures of Tintin

I just finished watching the Adventures of Tintin: The Secret of the Unicorn, and this quote just simply stuck on me so I just wanna share it with everyone. :)
Failed. There are plenty of others willing to call you a failure. A fool. A loser. A hopeless souse. Don’t you ever say it of yourself. You send out the wrong signal, that is what people pick up. Don’t you understand? You care about something, you fight for it. You hit a wall, you push through it. There’s something you need to know about failure, Tintin. You can never let it defeat you.
- Captain Haddock (The Adventures of Tintin)


Saturday, June 2, 2012

Freebies for today

I just got back from the wedding of my officemate. Of course, there was free food and free fun. At the end of the ceremony, I got this nifty handmade giveaway. :)


After that, I went to the mall to look around at the items for sale. As I was going out, I bumped into this little promotional thing of the mall and in return I got a Martin Nievera CD and 3 Timezone passes. I'm not really a Martin fan but hey, it's still free so I was happy.



Starting from now on, I want to be thankful for even the little things I receive in life. Especially if they are free. ;)

Count your blessings. Not your problems.


Thursday, May 31, 2012

Are You Cebuano Enough?

So you have this "I ♥ Cebu" tee. You've eaten dried mangoes and visited the Magellan's Cross a million times. But did you know in exactly which places in Cebu you can see Rizal's clothings or the original KKK flag? Perhaps you did. But for me, I've only learned it last May 25, 2012.

My journey for the Gabii sa Kabilin started at around 7:00 PM due to some work in the office that just can't be left behind. (I hope next year they can do it in a weekend so I can have more time, but oh well.) I met up with three of my friends and we started out in the museum at the University of San Carlos. It was astonishing to see some Japanese ceramic displays as well  as preserved animals and ancient gadgets such as the spear, bolos, bows and arrows. It was also my first time to see a burial jar which I've only seen in text books.

After that, we had to ride a jeep going to the Cathedral church since there was no bus for us to ride. We had to walk a bit under the rain in going to the Cathedral museum since the jeepney driver said they can't go in further since the road was blocked. 

Upon seeing the museum and the Cathedral church in dim lights, the whole place seemed magical and almost like a free teleport ride to the historical times. With a traditional percussion band playing in the background, the historical ambiance was complete.



We went inside and saw ancient statues of saints but couldn't take take pictures since we were informed beforehand that it's not allowed. Perhaps it will ruin the statues. After the tour in the Cathedral museum, we moved on to the USPF museum.

What greeted us were three beautiful ladies in long gowns. We went further inside the museum and saw the original KKK flag. We were allowed to take a pic as long as we turned off the flash.


Further on, the ambiance was really merry as we saw people sitting and facing the stage with some cultural dancers. It was a really lively performance and again, I felt I was teleported back to a time when people enjoyed performances such as these during barrio fiestas instead of  those noisy and wild concerts.


We then went inside the Rizaliana museum where we saw some remnants of Rizal's clothings, as well as letters to Rizal from Josephine Bracken. After a while, we just went out since the guard suddenly asked us if we were already done. We then felt quite lost since we dunno where to go next. Fortunately, the people assigned there were very accommodating and very helpful in giving us directions towards Parian, which was just very near. Honestly, I'm not all too familiar in the Cebu City routes.

As we were nearing Parian, the atmosphere was lively since there were so many people. They were listening to someone explaining the history of the place. We then approached this big obelisk at the center of the road and came up on this QR code with some trivia about Colon street. I personally think that this is a good innovation on learning more about the historical sites of Cebu especially with the growing trend of smart phones and tablets.


We passed by the gigantic Heritage of Cebu Monument and then proceeded to the Yap Sandiego ancestral house. 



I was both amazed and in awe as I saw this really old house which is around 300 years old. I never thought I could actually see such a well-preserved antique house still standing amidst the fast-paced development of Cebu. We went inside and it was both exhilarating and exciting to step on the creaking stairs and wooden floors, with ushers dressed in traditional Filipino costumes. We were even greeted by Ofelia Sandiego who made us feel welcome in this house. There were even song and dance performances being done inside and outside the house.


We were fortunate enough to see two of the Sandiego dancers doing a fiery fire dance. It was my first time to see an actual dance and it was simply mesmerizing.


Since we were already running out of time, we decided to end our journey with a tartanilla ride. Again, another first time for me. It was exciting and it felt really good that for a change I was riding a tartanilla instead of a jeepney on an almost deserted street, with the air so cold. The ride was quite a bit short but it was still worth it. I just felt pity when I saw some horses with foams of saliva forming in their mouths. Perhaps they were too thirsty after a long day, I wouldn't know. 

Yes six hours was just really too short considering all the traveling that needs to be done during museum hopping. So next year, most probably I'll target those places I wasn't able to visit this year and plan my route very well. More places, more time, more fun. I'm expecting these things in the next year of the Gabii sa Kabilin.

Nevertheless, the whole experience made me feel more proud that I am a Cebuano. I think that living in this beautiful island will never be complete unless I am able to explore its beautiful history and heritage. I am thankful for all the people who are dedicated in preserving these ancestral inheritance for the future generations to see. I think that this makes one feel more worthy to wear the " Cebu" tee.

This is an official entry to the 2012 Gabii sa Kabilin Blogging Contest.