Sunday, November 22, 2015

I almost died at 3AM

I died. I was crying as I bid goodbye to my family. I hugged them as much as I could, then a lady took my hand and told me that we should go. I went with her. She took me to the entrance of a tunnel or a circular door with a white light inside. As I stepped in, everything around me was blank where occasional lights blinked here and there. Then we came to a reception area. I saw others who were waiting. A woman at her desk was calling out our names and listing names of living people whom we could visit. In this case, it was my mom. Then the date I died was also written - April 29 (Today is November 23, 2015 by the way). I thought that this was the same month where my beloved cat had died (April 19). I felt happy and excited because I might be able to see him again. I tried to blink to test if I was really dead. Yes, I was indeed dead. I wondered what mom would have felt knowing I died earlier than her. Did my sisters cry? I felt sad that I was only able to live 25 years of my life (I'm 27 by the way). As I was thinking about this, I woke up. I told my mom about my dream. She shrugged it off but I could see from her face that she was worried. I woke up a second time around. It was a double dream. I looked all around me. Oh my God, I'm still alive. I could never thank God enough that I was able to open my eyes, wake up, and be alive again. I'm still wrapping my head about what this could mean, but this really made me feel really pensive today.

PS: The last time I had this kind of dream, one of my classmates in high school died a few days later.

Sunday, September 20, 2015

A Little Pig's Cry

Mom, I don't want to die.
I want to see this beautiful world.
I'm only a few years old.
But they are planning to take my life soon.

Mom I don't want to die.
But they took me away,
To a dark room along with our own kind.
We are all scared, Mom.

Mom, I don't want to die.
Where are you? Help me.
I don't see them coming back anymore.
I only hear a cry from afar.

Mom, I don't want to die.
But it's already my turn.
I am going to miss you.
Please remember me always.

Mom I don't want to die.
They stabbed my stomach.
They slit my throat.
I cried as loudly as I could.

Mom I don't want to die.
I squealed in pain,
As I see my own blood flowing out of me.
The world around me is getting dark.

Mom, I don't want to die.
But they didn't understand me.
They only laughed as they talked about me.
But their voices are fading now.

Mom, I don't want to die.
But God is calling me now.
He said it wasn't my time yet.
But He still welcomes me.

Mom, I didn't want to die.
Don't let this happen to my siblings.
Don't let them die for the wicked beings.
They deserve to live.

Mom, I didn't want to die.
But I already am.

Note: My writing prompts come at the most unusual times and at the oddest places. This one was inspired when I was riding a jeepney on the way home and I heard a  pig's squeal/scream along the highway. It was a distressful cry that it made me impulsively compose in my mind because I had no pen and paper in hand. When it was safer, I decided to get my phone and write the whole thing until I reached home.